I think is it very rare to get over a tragedy so quickly, so I think that your grief is completely normal. I lost Griffin in 2015 and it is now 2020. I still miss him and still feel guilty at some odd times because I wonder if I did everything I could have done for him. I know I did, but then doubt or sadness start to creep back into my mind. I also felt very guilty about getting a new dog - our Max. However, I know it was the right thing to do because my dog that remained was heartbroken. It was just the right thing to do for her, but it also turned out to be the best thing for us as well. Having someone else to channel all that love into really did help us get over our grief of losing our most precious dog. I think as long as we try and help our pets, we will always be okay in the end. It just takes time. There is no meter running on how long someone grieves for a pet - or for a person. We just try and own up to it, feel it, acknowledge it, but then try and move on to a plateau of sorts I think. I now try and remember HOW MANY wonderful moments I had with that dog... What a wonderful and precious gift I had in him. You had that in Max and you felt it to be so good to him when he needed you most. Most importantly - HE knew that and knew that you loved him. We have to give ourselves a bit of grace and let ourselves off the hook. Given the circumstances, we could not change them for our guys and we did the very best we could. That is enough and your love is/was enough. I wish you peace and sending you virtual hope that you will find an ease in your grief over time. It will always be there - my love and missing Griffin is always with me - but I can now see how blessed I was to have had him in my life. For that, I guess the pain of losing him was "worth" it. I wish I had not but in reality, I would never have been ready for him to go because I loved him that much. Be grateful for your Max time - I know you are and will always be. He will come again to you in other ways!